Saturday, July 19, 2008

Being there...

No worries... so I cried a bit, I am only human after all. I was feeling fine and optimistic the very next day.

Today I went to the Oceanogriafco (Aquarium). When I got home I found out that my Aunt Ann had a massive heart attack the night before and a stroke this morning. She is not doing well at all. My mother is driving up to North Carolina to be with her and cousins. I am so sad not to be there, I would love to be able to say good-bye to her. Luckily, our last correspondence was rather recent and in it she told me how proud she is of me and how much respect she has for me. I wrote back that I love her. The hardest part is not being there for my mom and cousins. I wish I could do that. I can't believe I am not there and part of me wants to jump on the next flight out.... I must always continue to find strength within myself.

A friend of mine passed away this week too after a long battle with cancer. She's at peace. It's strange to think I won't be attending her services either.


1 comment:

Patti Gibbons said...

I will be there for you my dear, am going to the wake this evening.

I got a call last night that my mom was being taken to the hospital. She is not doing well. I have to call the nursing home to see what is up.

At our age it is sad to see both friends and family get sick, suffer. It is also unnerving as we too face our own morality.

here it to living it up each day.
(and I have a headache this morning!) xxp