Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Feliz Navidad

Merry Christmas or Feliz Navidad to me I guess. I’m sitting in JFK Airport waiting for my flight that leaves in about 4 hours. I was lucky enough to have a friend drop me off door to door service, but earlier than I had hoped. Not that I’m complaining mind you, I am grateful for the lift, the company and not having to pay to park my car. Never in my life have I seen an airport so quiet, but the pigeons seemed to be enjoying it.

Well, it’s been a crazy year, that’s for sure. I’m glad to have the end of this year go out with a bang, so to speak. Though I remain grateful for everyone and everything I have in my life, I am also grateful for the changes that are taking place and proud to be taking the steps that need to happen to ensure these changes.

Ken’s in New Mexico visiting his folks, I’m glad he is amongst people that love him, he deserves that. It was strange saying goodbye to him, really felt like the end of an era, like there is no going back for either of us. Luckily though, we have managed to remain friends and I hope that continues throughout all of this hardship and beyond.

I’m going to Spain!! Exciting and different, that’s the name of 2008 for me. Ch-ch-changes, strange and unusual changes. Wishing everyone, or anyone, who reads this a wonderful Christmas and a very happy New Year!!!

More to come over the next few days.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Where has the past gone.

Today I did something just for me. Years ago my mother had given me a ring from my grandmother (dad's mom). It was too small and although I have always admired it, I never had it sized. Well yesterday I sized it to replace my wedding band on my left hand. I love it!!! There is a sense of peace knowing it is a family heirloom of sorts, not too many things passed through the generations in my family. Sad really, because I know so little about either side, but especially my dad's side.

When did our culture lose it's sense of heritage? Times change, I get that but why do we lose our past? Is it only my life I should be learning from or isn't there something I should be learning from those who came before me? I mean sure, I have learned plenty from listening to and watching my parents, but what about their parents or those before them. I imagine part of who I am has to do with them too, but I don't know how or why.
In my life I have known only one grandparent and she left this world when I was only six years old. I wonder how life would have been different if I had experienced their influence. Who were they? What did they like or dislike? What were their beliefs? These are questions I may never know... well maybe someday.

Monday, December 3, 2007


A simple 2 hour delay, but how it puts a smile on my face. Was feeling good about it all until I fell while carrying a mirror that belonged to my new roommate... shattered everywhere and even broke the frame. Does this mean my bad luck will begin now?... honestly, I'm in no mood for it so I think I will simply reject the entire notion and pay to replace the mirror.
Not much snow on the ground, but a lot of ice on my way to work (10AM) and the trees looked like they were glistening with Christmas tinsel. The sun is shining and it looks and feels like a beautiful day. Wishing I could take Monte to the park today instead of having to go to a meeting... seems like a good day to visit the Hudson and my pup.

New home

December is here, another year come and almost gone. So much has happened and changed in my life this year, I can hardly believe it. I moved in with a friend yesterday, I'll stay here for a while at least. Its nice, I have the attic room finished and cozy. I'm still unpacking and trying to make it feel like my very own. Work keeps me busy as usual and I have been doing a lot of reading, writing and painting again...though not so much this weekend. It snowed today, first time this season.. It was nice to see, but I always like it better when it snows on a school day, feel like a little kid all over again when I get the phone call saying there is a delay or better yet no school at all.

Although it feels good to move on, it's also kind of sad to leave. It's funny, I think this experience has caused both Ken and me to grow, but we continue to grow in different directions. I think we will both be ok, but we have a lot to work out and to work on. The good news is we are both trying, so I think that counts for something. Please feel free to email or call either of us... it helps to know people are supporting.

By the way, I'm taking my first European vacation... Spain from Christmas Eve to New Year's Eve!!
I'm looking forward to enjoying every bit of it.